I have decided that...

I need to be not-poor.

Bittersweet.

I am very happy that Mandee is followig her heart and going to Bismarck to be with Rick, but at the same time... It is so very hard for me to make girlfriends.
I usually just can't stand girls but Mandee and I just clicked right away and that was so nice and refreshing. I already feel like she's one of my best friends.
Blah.
The end.

Stressing.

I am so tired of having all of these issues.
Thank God for the people that have been nice enough to not let me be alone all week long.
There has only been one night this week that I have slept alone and I am so thankful for that.
I am kind of missing Illinois, but at the same time, I would constantly be alone out there and I don't think that I could handle that right now.

I'm tired of having money issues and I am tired of the fact that money always has to rule the freaking world.
Life would be a whole lot simpler if it weren't for money.

My new dosage of meds is completely kicking my ass and that is driving me crazy.
I've been sleeping constantly and I hate it.

I hate chinese war movies.
They always bore me.

K. That's all for now, I guess.

So tired...

Black Friday kicked my butt.
However, I did get my Nikon mad cheap.
The lovely people of Target were kind enough to brew and hand out coffee to those of us that braved the cold night to wait in line to get the best deals.
Chik-Fil-A failed and ended up not being allowed to sell their sandwiches to people in line, so we also got free Chik-Fil-A breakfast sandwiches. Yummmm.

I got a couple of other bargains, but nothing too exciting.
I can't really afford to spend an entire day shopping, so I just spent an entire day window shopping.
One traumatic evening this week, though that requires no public details.
I really should be sleeping.

I have to take Kasee to work at 6:00 AM.
Ouch.

My ankle seems to be better for the most part.

I hate my medicines.

I miss Illinois.

I miss my grandparents.

I want to go home, now...

Thanksgiving.

I am not only thankful when Thanksgiving rolls around.
It just seems the appropriate time to talk about it excessively, thank you very much.

Anyway- Slept all day today, thanks to a painful ankle. I'm awesome for being able to injure myself while tripping up the stairs.

Took a Wawa thanksgiving to Christopher so he didn't have to completely miss his favorite holiday just because he wasn't feeling well.

I'm missing Illinois right now.
I do not want to be away from my grandfather after finding out he may have very little time left with us here on earth.
Stay where I'm needed or go where I *want* to be?
Decisions, decisions...

I am so very angry with my psychiatrist for the situation I had to deal with the other day.
That should not have happened.
You do not leave someone you consider a "serious case" with no options or answers when you know you are supposed to be treating them across the country. Being on vacation is no excuse for having no one to cover your patients.
I thought that was why I paid so much money to see her...
"Top therapist in the area" my ass.

I really wish that my laptop would come to life long enough for me to get the things I need off of it. That would be one huge stress factor dealt with.
I don't so much care if the stupid thing dies as long as I can get my stuff off of it.

Gluten-free gingersnaps are delicious.
^That is a true statement.

This is a completely random post.
Good thing no one reads it. =]




I want something else to get me through this semi-charmed kind of life.

I feel like I should be blogging right now, so here it is.
Things are going OK.
I am no better and no worse than when I left Illinois.
I get Kasee tonight.
The end.