So, here's the scoop...

I'm heading out to PA this weekend.
I will be there until sometime in January.
Maybe someday I will be able to take a trip that isn't so last minute... That would certainly be refreshing.
I do not enjoy spur of the moment trips across the country the same way that I used to, but maybe that's because they used to be spur of the moment for fun and not necessity.

My psychiatrist doubled my dosage.
One of my medicines is $123 a month and that's for the GENERIC.
She also doubled the dosage on my other medication and made it a stronger form of the medicine.
That also increased in price.

I really have a lot that I should be doing, but I am suddenly very overwhelmed.
I can't even read my own feelings right now.
I'm not upset, I'm not sad, I'm not frustrated, but I am some strange combination of all three.
That doesn't make sense, but that's as close to understanding as I can manage to get.

To do list
Change oil in car
Pack up my life again
Buy winter boots
Buy smaller jeans that actually fit me
Find laptop bag
Change windshield wipers
Buy transmission fluid
Make sure I have cash for tolls
Find fm transmitter
Possibly buy car charger for BlackBerry so I can USE fm transmitter
Kick myself for not having an iPod
Pick up prescriptions
Pray that my car doesn't blow up and my windshield doesn't shatter.
Sigh a lot