Stressed out.

Life is kind of going crazy right now.

Stephen's Grandmother is on her deathbed and it is so hard to see her like that. She is completely non-responsive and just sad-looking.

We went to the hospital yesterday and it was basically just watching someone die. It was heartbreaking and I panicked and all I could do was recoil and write until I wasn't nervous or antsy anymore.

I pray that her passing is swift and painless.

It's hard to tell whether or not she's in pain, but I very much hope that she is not. I hope that she is at least somewhat comfortable.

I lost it yesterday when the priest came in to give her her final rights.

That's when it really set in that we were going to lose her and that's when I finally started crying after trying my hardest to be strong for Stephen.

I hung out with smizzy 1 and smizzy 2 last night and I must say that those are some of my favorite nights. I love those two more than anything in the world. Good friends make everything a little bit better.